Fruit Machine Chat

Not been on for 3 days as uve seen, had some... well... not good news...

Seems 10 years of doing what I do has taken its toll and now I face a George best... Drink and well, take me luck, or give up now and MAYBE... see me pention.......


Yeah right.... I'm an alkie.. first to admit it tbh.. as you all know, so... at least I know whats what, and i know basically when.....


The question to you lot is... Casual/Binge.........

POLL TIME YEEHAAA...


My sig stands in a court of law btw... drawn contract lol


Go Go Go........ be honest like I have been.

never ever ever smoked, drank, or done any drugs , ever .

never.

i get my high's from other things in life , and try to weight train a bit on my days off.

i know that even doctors recomend the odd brandy or occasional red wine. and everything in moderation n all that.

but not for me.

guess in our game you always have to have your eyes in the back of your head , and be aware of your situation surroundings at all times . so why take any mind altering substance that can mess with that?

I'm pretty much a binge drinker.....during the week i have no desire to drink at all. When i do go out here (usually Monday & Friday night) i'll probably have 4-5 pints, 5 or so shots, 3 or 4 double vodka/redbulls or double amaretto/coke or double SoCo/lemonade, then a load of bottled rubbish (usually VK) in whatever club i end up in. Not a good example to follow!

Kinda time catches up with ya Lee.. been here on n off 4 years.. over 3 accounts now......


Basically just checking in with general joe tbh..

I know, as you all do, I have a massive drink problem... made even worse by results today , and kids ect at home... but, ...

I know it will kill me....... I have no shame as its the path I took long ago, Its killing me now... just hope i see my kids leave home..

I know a lot of you will say " shut up, just stop "... but it's not that easy.. I'm only 35.....and have drunk 10-12 liters per day.. since I was 15......


Any way.... do the poll just outa interest lol..... Cry for me when u have no one to come up with funky new codes lol....


Sigh... NOT DEAD YET FUCKERS LOOOOOOOOOOOOL''''

besides i drive , and if i ever hurt anyone as a result of drink . . . . . i would top myself due to guilt. . . . seriously.

plus my parents have been fostering kids for 24 years , and ive grown up witnesing first hand the devastation alcohol can have on family's

so i guess it made an impression from an early age , and i just never started.

trayhop123 wrote: ive grown up witnesing first hand the devastation alcohol can have on family's.

How to make Matt more depressed than he alredy is lol..


But alas true..........not really much more i can say...

Drink alot myself, but not enough to get hangovers etc. really. I can judge the right time to stop pretty well. Can't be good for you still the amount I get through, maybe 1-2 bottles of wine equivalent a day, but its pretty much every day.

Still what's the point of worrying about it. When something happens then you can do something about it, and if it's too late... ahh well, thats life. If I got remotely ill thanks to drinking I would be able to stop just like that.

Suppose im a binge drinker!!

Only on a friday/saturday tho...

So far tonight, ive had 4 pints of stella.. wait!! is that binge drinking?

Look.. I started this purley for my own reasons..

I was told today I have cronic liver failure, like ... well, if I can prove I have stopped drinking in 6 months time they will consider a transplant..

God sakes...


I know its not going to happen, I cant function without booze, i'm only 35...

6 kids all under 7.. Ive been crying all night...

I'm sorry...


Just needed to vent it...



God I feel stupid....weak and like .....

Just me.. piss head thats got what he deserves tbh....

mrs invincible used to work with me i would drive she likes a drink not a piss head but a easy 5 + pints a day bottle o wine when we had finished.
I asked her so many times to go without for a day or two, she couldnt untill 7 months ago when she found out she is pregnant aint touched a drop since.

comes down to what matters the most to you

not sure theres anything any of us can say thats gonna get you off it m8. im sure youve heard it all b4 . and youve got to truly want to stop yourself.

dont cry m8

go look into your childrens eyes and imagine how your selfish act of kiling yourself will effect their lives ?

harsh m8 i know , but use that incentive to get help .

best of luck bud .

lee.

My kids/wife matter more than life ...... but when ure a dead man already what can you do but break down in tears an feel sorry for your self......


All the joke posts ive made about cider ect.. even have a cider avi... now look at me.. on my knees and a pittifull excuse for an adult....





Just be warned.. PLEASE dont binge drink....


Ok.. i'll be around for a while.. but will wind down posts in a month or so and spend time with he family.......


When Ileve the net, i'll pop in once a month to let you know how i'm doing..

So sad , even now i'm thinking of this place......


It's the internet tats killed me.. sitting 24/7 coding/building/hacking ect....


FUCK THE INTERNET.. and sod off to the cider thats done me.... tusk.... so sad.. what a way to limp out...........

Fuck!! That's so sad..

LOL, i don't even know u, and im hoping u give up the booze!!

But u seem a good bloke at heart..

Hope u give up the booze, and get better, i can imagine what ur'e going through, a really good friend of mine was an alcholic, he had to fall through a window, and have 190 stiches, micro surgery, before he sought help..

2days the day i quit 4 2months.

only drink on the weekends really unless theres a good reason to in the week!!